The Road to Hell is Paved with Good Intentions...
Baghdad Burning: "We literally do not know a single Iraqi family that has not seen the violent death of a first or second-degree relative these last three years. Abductions, militias, sectarian violence, revenge killings, assassinations, car-bombs, suicide bombers, American military strikes, Iraqi military raids, death squads, extremists, armed robberies, executions, detentions, secret prisons, torture, mysterious weapons – with so many different ways to die, is the number so far fetched?"
As my mother frequently reminded me, "The road to Hell is paved with good intentions." I'm glad to be living in America. I'm usually proud to be an American. However, when I read these words they burned my heart.
Life goes on normally in the rest of the world, for the most part. There is homelessness in our American cities, murders for control of gang territory, people who commit minor (or major) fraud against their employers or employees. The pulse of life continues apace.
I too have sought some solace in religion. I am turning more and more toward my Buddhist teachings. I read the books looking for some comfort. I haven't found much. There's a lot of pain out there, and when I read River's blog I realize and appreciate that my pain is but a shadow on the wall compared to searing light of her daily existence. Where will it end? When will people of good conscience and truly upright moral fiber stand up and declare an end to the lunacy and mendacity?
Sigh...
Something is wrong in the world. If there really was a Satan, or chief of evil doing, he has played a great hand in America. We are doing his work on a global scale. I am ashamed. I am very sorry and don't know how to make it right. I voted my conscience. I voted twice, and both times I didn't get what I voted for. Yes. I suspect that there was foul play both times. It makes me sick to imagine that our system has become so corrupt that it can be so easily manipulated by the rich and powerful. I'm ready to leave and call this country quits.
It's not fair, though, that I should have to stay here. It would be worse to leave and then lose my voice entirely. It would be worse for River if other Americans, who felt heartsick over this situation, pulled up stakes and moved to a more politically friendly country, like Canada. I can't. We can't. If we do, who will be left to stand up for people in the rest of the world affected by our policies but not given a chance to vote on it?
What about my children? Should I stay and teach them to stand up for what I believe to be right or should I move them somewhere where they will be surrounded by a culture that holds life to be more dear and valuable than they do here. Life is so cheap that half a million Iraqis can die and more be displaced, but we still claim to be doing the right thing. Such hubris.
On behalf of the 50.1% of America that voted for Bush a second time, I want to apologize to the people of Iraq for my countrymen's ignorance and gross indifference to your plight. I really do believe that what comes around goes around (karma). The people who are responsible for bringing America and Iraq to this point have a lot to atone for.
We started this war, and now we own it. We owe it to you to make up for your situation. We must atone, and we will one way or another.

